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me and december 03. 2014
skin crawl and there’s that feeling in my stomach – that heavy feeling that comes right before you begin to cry uncontrollably. you know it’s about to come – even in your grief you can stop and tell...
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me and december 04. 2014
not enough sleep last night so i woke up on my back dehydrated confused for just a second and too far away from pen and paper to record the dream before it slipped out of my head to become just a...
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me and december 05. 2014
i’ve talked before about how one of the hardest parts of the disease to deal with is the loneliness. you never realize how lonely you are until you are surrounded by people you love. to have a mind...
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me and december 06. 2014
afternoon dreams/short medication nightmares (scene one) bare room and then sounds like trumpets and tambourines and i am walking down that old dirt road in carson city – then up in the cemetery...
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me and december 07. 2014
borderline personality disorder m - you’ll find me alone busy sweating erect and i’m below the blankets scribbling out the last words of what we’ve been calling ‘dreams’ or just ‘blog notes’ like i...
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me and december 08. 2014
psychiatrist visit today. he told me he was worried about me this weekend and happy to see me today. he said there is still no word yet from the ECT doctor but that his office would be calling them...
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me and january 05. 2015
i’ve just been upside down, watching the wires cut into my wrists and waiting for the rain to stop. it’s cold - you have no idea how cold - and when my eyes are closed i can’t tell just how many groups...
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me and january 12. 2015 – ECT test prep day
today i had to fill out 12 pages of paper work, give blood, pee, have an EKG, two spine x-rays, a neck x-ray, and a chest x-ray. after all that fun i immediately went over to my psychiatrist...
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me and february 27. 2015 – (late night/early morning)
molly – we’re getting sloppy. if you agree we can staple our tongues together and tie nooses around our necks while we share our secrets – loud, bloody, sweet, and full of surprises while the clock...
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me and july 28. 2016 (now a book)
i’m back. i’m still alive. and this time i’m going to try and stick around. it’s been over a year since i’ve written anything here, but i have been busy. first and foremost – as i mentioned before, i...
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